Hmm

Well the wii says i have put on 1lb so i have only lost 2lb so far but i spose thats not too bad, though i was hoping for a slightly bigger loss, but i did have pasta for tea last night so that might have been some of the reason.
Went for a long walk with the pooch last night which i felt good about, got to work on upping my speed now but its quite hard to work out a walk where there wont be many people. Will take her out again tonight at like 8 so its not too busy.

Was supposed to be me and mum dieting but mums been eating chocolate and stuff, and whatever i say she doesnt seem very determined, so i think im going to just do it on my own. Im going swimming tomorrow before work with my sister, and have to walk there which is about 2 miles so will be doing lost of exercise tomorrow. Got to decide what to have for lunch though as i only get 30 mins in an 8 hour shift so i need something filling.

Not sure what to do today as i am just a bit like 'mmmff' so cant really be bothered to do anything! Going to have lunch in a min which is duck and hoi sin noodles, but it says its low fat and cals so alls good. Will keep on writing the points down as it does help.

Off for lunch now so write in a few days xx

Diet agaiiiiin..

Well i am doing well, havent weighed myself yet. Had friends round for cocktails last night so had a few and a few bits of snack stuff but i didnt go overboard. Im loving it :)

We planned our night out for may so i have a month to lose some weight so i can buy myself  a new outfit :)

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Diet

Okkk well i did pretty rubbish at my attempt of losing weight so i actually put on more weight!! But i actually am determined now, have done 100 sit ups/crunches today and ache a tad so that must be good! Had a restaurant meal today as its our 2 year anniversary but have eaten well the rest of the day!

 Going to try eating half an apple before bedtime as i have heard this speeds up your metabolism. Not sure if it will but may aswell try! Am using the wii fit to weigh myself so will be back on it tomorrow! It makes me feel guilty when it says i havent been on there in weeks!!

Will be back in a week to see how much i have lost.

Ciao!

5 days later...

Well its been 5 days since i started my diet and it getting much easier now thank god! I told myself i wouldnt weight myself until Sunday but i decided to today just to see if i have lost anything. I have lost 3 kilos! A good start, though i know that it wont be that much every week!

Having a duvet day with Martin today so ill add a photo tomorrow.

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New Me...

Well tomorrow I start my new diet! I am following Weight Watchers but not actually going to the meetings. I have around 30 kilos to lose so lets hope I do well! Im going to blog it on here for my own support, even though no one reads my blog, its nice to read it myself in a few months time and see how i've been feeling and thinking etc.

I'm going to take a picture of myself how I am now, and take a picture every month to see if i see any change. Im so much more determined now, cos I saw a picture of a girl I went to school with and she has lost loads of weight and looks so good now, i just know i'll have so much more self confidence, and that will be good for when I go to uni. I may put the picture on each month or so, depends how I feel.

I think thats all, i'll write again in a few days along with my first picture of myself.

I Miss You Lily.

Its easier to write on here than say it to someones face because most wouldnt understand, well apart from Martin, but i cant keep crying into him about it as a should have got over it by now, apparently.

But i still miss her- i miss her cuddles, i miss her falling asleep in my arms, i miss her cheeky-ness. She was my baby and she was taken from me. I hate the fact she is buried under dirty mud. I hate the fact she is buried at all, she shouldnt have died. I bet if i told you now that Lily was a rabbit you would think im crazy, thats why i dont say it to peoples face.

I still look out the kitchen window expecting her to be sat munching on her tea, or sat grumpily in her bedroom, but every time i have to face it that she will never be there.

I would bring her indoors every day, cuddle her, play with her, feed her her favourite chocolate drops. I miss you lily, and hope you will always remember our cuddles. I love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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First entry.... feels weird. So sleepy after spending hours thinking of a suitable blog name that was actually available!! Gym early tomorrow so off to sleep.